Monday morning was rough, with taking my boy to get his physical at 9:00am, then trying to come home and get some sleep to flip over for work that night. I ended up just staying up doing nothing after I got home (watching a little porn), but before I knew it, it was around noon, so my sleep was cut really short. This kind of sucks, but this is my life right now. I have to manage extra stuff thrown on me and then everyone expects me to just get enough sleep while the world is moving about. And after the shitty way they removed my night shift differential from 15% to 5%, I don't know that it is worth it anymore, but there are already three people on days plus our manager, who actually is involved and does a lot of the harder stuff.
Anyways, I went to work and it was just like I thought. I was drowsy at the start of the shift, but I managed, maybe dozing off once while washing bottles for my samples (I fucking hate this step, every little bottle needs to be filled and rinsed ten times, and repeat for the tops). I came home and took my now usual nap of 30-40 minutes and it totally helped for the second half of the night, plus I think I watched a movie and that helps, once all my stuff is prepped and I can just sit and run samples I can watch a movie or shows on Hulu/Netfix.
In the morning though, I usually stop and talk with my old coworker from imaging, we gossip and chat like two old hens, she gets the best stories out of me because she gives me cookies and other treats. I noticed I was getting drowsy and closing my eyes but I kept snapping to attention, but stil she was like "hey, yoo-hoo, are you ok?" I guess I closed my eyes but could still hear her faintly, which is what happens with Wife all the time. I swear I am still in the conversation but I am halfway to sleep. I shook it off as she yelled at me to wake and I promised her I would be fine, I just needed to crank the radio. I got home OK, and after my shower, I saw the old bottle of melatonin pills and I said f**k it, I need to do something different.
When I tried them six months ago, I had these vivid dreams which I saw so clearly, I wrote about them. It almost scared me, what if they had been scary dreams, yes I'm kind of a puss? This time though, I think the pill worked perfectly, maybe sitting in the bathroom for so long they aren't as potent. Usually, I feel like a puppy, I sleep for an hour or two, get up to pee, look out the windows, hoping it might rain, look through my phone for anything that I might need to respond to. Sometimes I even come out of the room, are the boys here, how come they are so quiet? I repeat this over and over until 4:00pm, when I usually try to get up. With the pill, I only woke at 11:45am to pee, there was no rumbling around, I went right back to sleep, and then Javalina woke me at 1:40 because the Fedex Guy needed me to sign some crap, thanks Boy. I forgot to set my alarm, since I didn't fidget with my phone in the morning, and I have a back-up alarm set at 5:00pm and that is when I finally woke. I didn't feel like my bladder was busting at the seam either at 1:40 or at 5:00, which I always feel, but that could be because I am constantly drinking sodas and tea. I woke up feeling brand new. Monday I only drank water as I was discussing starting a new diet with Wife which would start with cutting all those yummy sugars. That will be another benefit, but that means being up all night without caffeine. I know everyone I know thinks I am a fat fucker about to keel over, but you cut out coffee in the morning and see how you feel to start your day. Not attacking anyone, sorry, it's just everyone always has the answers for me, yet no one seems to remember I work opposite times as everyone else.
I love Javalina (even my parents still seem surprised that I work nights) telling me "why are you tired all the time, all you do is sleep?" He cannot register that I work more hours than his mom on my long weeks. I told him I was tired and I wanted to go lounge at the house yesterday at Target, he looks at me with a superior tone and says "huh, that is all you do, Big Man." I just ignore the goading, but maybe I'll try the pills twice next week.
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